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[Harry, too?

No. No, no, no, no. This isn't how it's supposed to be. Both of them are her friends, they wouldn't have--

She tries once, twice, three times to write a message back. But in the end, all she can come up with is:]

why

[He doesn't have to see or hear her to know what she's going through. That single word is all it takes to have him drowning again in his own guilt, and Isaac swallows hard and tries to answer, but he can't, because he doesn't fucking know.]

i dont... we werent ourselves. thiazi got into our heads. i dont remember a lot of it but it was dark and terrible like a nightmare except it wasnt. it wasnt about you she just wanted us to destroy everything we could.

i hurt a lot of people. i dont know what to do but i wanted you to know and to know that i would never have hurt you if i wasnt- i dont know. mind controlled

Then it wasnt you

[She clings to that, because otherwise, she just can't conceive of it. The two kindhearted people she knows, doing something so... so cruel, so painful, so terrifying.

She refuses to believe in it.]

It wasnt you so it wasnt your fault

Thiazi did it

[It was Thiazi who did it. Not her friends. It was Thiazi.]

im sorry. i cant believe i could even...

are you alright?

Yes im healed and everything

do you need anything? books or candy or- i dont know anything???

i want to make this right

It wasnt your fault so you dont have to do anything

[She seems pretty adamant about it. No matter what, she just... can't come to accept that this was because of him.]

im still going to- thats dumb to not blame me. im still going to make up for it.

But it wasnt you

as a friend then

let me do something nice for you because 'someone else' murdered you

[Murdered...]

But i cant think of anything

[And it's true. It's hard to think about anything happy when you've just found out someone close to you was the very one who was forced to kill you.]

well let me know if you do

how is the hamster?

Ok

The hamsters ok

good

the pet store is closed indefinitely but ill grab you a bunch of food and stuff ok? so you dont have to restock

Its ok if you do that??

well like i said the store is gonna be closed for awhile if it ever opens again. better than just letting it sit there

If your sure i probly need more food now

yeah...

if you dont wanna see me i can get someone else to drop it off or something

No its ok you can come

[...She's a little scared, to be honest. But she doesn't want Isaac to realize that.]

alright

ill be there in like an hour ok?

Ok ill wait here

[And isn't this familiar? Isaac knocks on her door an hour or so later, looking sheepishly toward the ground.

There are bags at his feet with the hamster food, but there's also a handful of long-stemmed flowers he's unsubtly trying to hide behind his back as he waits for her to answer the door.]

[She actually dozed off for a little there, but she does come hurrying to the door when she hears it.

She opens it just a crack at first, but more so once she's seen who it is.]

Ah... Isaac-san. You made it...

Yeah. Uh.

[He rubs at the back of his head before procuring the flowers. Sorry-I-murdered-you flowers? Hope you feel better now that you're back from the dead? Something like that.]

Here- these are for you. [And they're not the prettiest, or the most in bloom, but he tried at least. They're not terrible to look at.]

[Her eyes widen and she carefully, almost disbelievingly holds her hands out for the flowers.]

A-ah... Thank you! You really didn't have to...!

[She thought it was just going to be hamster food! But she does seem to be a little happier, even if she's still mostly surprised.]

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